I saw alot of ppl who know who they are but other that didn't so I thought that maybe we could talk about ourself. I am NOT talking about "I'LL CONSOLE YOU" way but in the way that if you are hurt you could spill or if you want to help way.
Freak to Freak.
hun, believe me your not crazy, i dont deal with what you do no, but everytime one of my friends or family members get hurt and blood is drawn, if i dont walk away ill start trying to feed off that wound, gross,i know but my friend actually said shed let me feed from her. but i still feel like a freak and a danger to the people i love. it scares me because i dont know whats happening and i hve no control over it. i cant break the habit but apparently im stronger then i thought because what i thought was a tap on my friends leg, actually left a welt and a bruise. im scared alot of what i can do to others so i try and distance myself because if i dont i fear i may hurt someone really bad. dont think it worked but i was trying to make you feel better by telling you a little about me.
i know for a fact i have at least 3/4 vampire but theres still that 1/4 missing that i dont know what it is. i think i may be all vampire, im pretty sure im all vamp, but idk.
I think im half Vampire... IDK..... I might be full.... and i have some wolf in me, my friends tell me anyway... i hate this.. feeling so clueless about MYSELF! *sigh*
"You are not really a vampire, only half.Your other half is human. You age to about 16 to 21 then stop and start having cravings then.And animals won't help, it has to be human blood. But you don't get any other abilty than living forever. And when you stop ageing it hurts, a lot."
One of the same kind told me that. He also said it's not in my blood, I haven't been bitten befor. I was born this way.
And im really scared.
i hav no idea what i am... i know what people want me to be. My family friends see me as this fashionable, cool, popular girl. But in reality i'm the complete opposite. i feel like i'm wearin a mask nd i don't even know what my true self is like anymore. I'm jst confused with all these fake identities that everyone wants me to live up to, and i feel like only i understand that i never will. Does anyone else feel like this or am i reely alone like i always thot i was?