i didnt like this dream

i was in a discusting dirty big city where you couldnt trust any one and kids were carrying around weapons and using them regularly. i lived there the inside of the houses i know in real life were acuratly the same but thte out side was a ratty out apartment with floor boards falling out of place and stairs missing. it would be so easy just to fall through a whole in the dusty floor and die, And for some reason i felt the need to go to my grandma's house to collect some of her things(shes been dead fer almost 2 years)... im followed by a group of 4 theiving boys with weapons to protect me cause her place was abandoned and proably teaming with bad people(trashing the place)... knocking down the rotting door was easy but seeing that some one else had take the place i didnt like. they're stuff was laying on the ground... the place was well lit and had all of my grandmas stuff in it. in fact (the thing that really freaked me out) she was still in there. Laying on her couch, death and rotting for the last 2 years...nobody noticed the smell cause the whole city smelled like decomposing flesh. and i tried not to make a big deal of her body being there because in this city there were bodies every where cause nobody cared about the dead and cemetaries were obsolete...so i go into her closet to look fer some of her stuff and infront of fer stuff was a crap load of shoes and roller and ice scates that would belong to an older person with very small feet...they obveiously stole them cause every thing was very expensive looking. And the thought was that while we're taking my grandmas stuff back we'll just steal all the stuff we like from the theives that live here now. (every body stole-it didnt make you a good or a bad person anymore)) so we stuffed boxxes and we all went to check the whole place to make sure no body was around watching us... and so we looked-- no body there... the guys walked out and i senced something(have no idea way at this piont)...i tell them to wait fer me outside 9a very very dangerous move)... i go into her bedroom walk in closet witch happens to be lit... and i see very very evil, (satanic in a christain's sence) tarot cards... and i got sooo pissed off that i ripped them all up and stuffed them in a CD case and took them with me, with one last look at my dead grandmas body... (you see i got mad because grandma was a very devoted christain, and although i dislike the religion, i cared about her soooo much that i would respect that part of her,, and seeing those tarot cards in her presence made me think,, if she saw this she would be soo scared about every thing)... i think the weird sence i got to go back there was her telling me to get rid of them... i ran out of the apartment room crying, and almost fell through a gaping hole in the floor by the stairs.. for some reason wen i got out i found the 4 theiving boys there but we were on te roof(after going down many flights of stairs)... they were staring out onto another building that was like the refectlion of them..posed in the same way, carrying stolen things... then we found they were staring at us cause we had just taken their things... they stared shooting at us... for some reason this didnt scare me but the foggy green clowds crouding the sky made me scream "i cant take this any more!!" and i woke up crying in my bed...

if you wanna read my dream and tell me what it means go ahead... if you wanna analyz...if ya wanna tell me im fucked up,.... if you wanna know why it scared me soo much... i dont know-- but in my wakeness- im still seeing images of the dream and shivering...im so scared to go outside and find that the real world might have transformed into what i saw----even though i know that cant happen... but im just soo petrified now..and i cant stop thinking about it....