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something stupid i did that i want to tell others about...
So. im putting this in the what am i section because its pertaining to awakenings.
The other day i decided that i did not want to be kin anymore. i decided that im simply a weird person and that all of this is some sort of paranoid delusion that i've created to entertain myself. My guide popped up and got very angry. i told him that he didnt exist, then proceeded to flip him off (do not flip off elder dragons. apparently they dont take to kindly to it) and walk out of his cave while he tried to flame broil my ass. My mate popped in at this point and i told him the same thing. to F*** OFF and that he doesnt exist. I have been sick since. I have discussed things with my guide since then, and after discussing things with him, my fever decreased within minutes (i was checking it a lot because it was changing quite rapidly, going up then down then up then down) and my body is just really really sore and tired today.
So what is the moral of my story? while being kin can sometimes seriously suck...we're stuck with it. that is one of the very few pieces of reality that i am unable to alter.
I wanted to post this up, because im sure that others have probably felt the same way (that its all in your head to keep yourself occupied) and im sure there are others who have not wanted to be what they are. So, i guess i hope others can avoid making this same mistake. because at the current moment i feel like a big steaming pile of poop.
The other day i decided that i did not want to be kin anymore. i decided that im simply a weird person and that all of this is some sort of paranoid delusion that i've created to entertain myself. My guide popped up and got very angry. i told him that he didnt exist, then proceeded to flip him off (do not flip off elder dragons. apparently they dont take to kindly to it) and walk out of his cave while he tried to flame broil my ass. My mate popped in at this point and i told him the same thing. to F*** OFF and that he doesnt exist. I have been sick since. I have discussed things with my guide since then, and after discussing things with him, my fever decreased within minutes (i was checking it a lot because it was changing quite rapidly, going up then down then up then down) and my body is just really really sore and tired today.
So what is the moral of my story? while being kin can sometimes seriously suck...we're stuck with it. that is one of the very few pieces of reality that i am unable to alter.
I wanted to post this up, because im sure that others have probably felt the same way (that its all in your head to keep yourself occupied) and im sure there are others who have not wanted to be what they are. So, i guess i hope others can avoid making this same mistake. because at the current moment i feel like a big steaming pile of poop.
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Permalink Reply by ☮MyEyesHurt☮ on -
None has ever asked who they want to be.
The same thine can be said about life, whether is it hard or not.
However, one tries to cope with their situation and continue moving on.
It's not about what kin are you.
Its about what you can do as a kin which makes you stand out from all the rest.
I long learned this way before I started realizing I was becoming what is now considerred "normal" today.
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Permalink Reply by Mei (Peridot Birchstar) on -
I can understand what you mean but the only things i know is that i have a lazy guardian angel and a really quiet animal guide
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Permalink Reply by Belladonna French fry Darkblade on -
I don't think I have a guardian :(
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Permalink Reply by The Spook on -
I don't have one either... I feel jipped.
Maybe we are too awesome for guardians, Bella.
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Permalink Reply by Belladonna French fry Darkblade on
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Pfft hell yeah Nobody wants us 'cause we explode in awesomeness.
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Permalink Reply by Belladonna French fry Darkblade on
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*hi 5s* WOOT!
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Permalink Reply by Sarah on -
somewhere along the road i read that the guide i have is more of a "keeper" and that only the dragons who are "difficult" get them. so you are right. you do not have one because you are awesome :D
and i think something along the same line for you as well Bella. i dont think that you need a guide. i think you've pretty much got shit under control :D
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Permalink Reply by Belladonna French fry Darkblade on
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Yeah, And if not, Hell I'll call up my family, they'll straighten stuff out.
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Permalink Reply by SPyke on -
not just dragons. also people who have a lot of inherant power or extrordanary gifts often have them for a while to make sure that they know to use them without killing themselves
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Permalink Reply by The Spook on
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Or too hard headed. With SPyke's addition I may just not be extraordinary enough, lmao. That's fine. I'm doing things alright on my own ^.^
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Permalink Reply by Sarah on
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lol while i completely agree with SPyke, i think that im more "hard headed" than in possession of extraordinary gifts...hehe i have mediocre gifts and a very rough attitude. for some reason i cant seem to apply my therapy skills to my kin stuff. in normal human things therapy is a piece of cake. it just seems to fly out the window the minute im no longer thinking in terms of the human way of things. life's lessons are always the hardest to learn i guess...
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