I don't know what to call it

For those who are too pissed off to think or say how they feel.

As I shed these tears, I remember who i shed them for.
All I could do was watch as they tore.
I'm not happy, I'm not sad.
I realize that I'm not mad.
I'M PISSED OFF!!!

I hate you for the pain.
I hate that you chose me to drain.
I can't believe you think this is a game.
Torturing people until their insane.
I hate you!
I hate you!
Why can't you die.
I don't even know why I cry.
Why cry for the pain you've caused me.
I'll find you and make you see.
You can't use and bullshit people like your toys.
All you do is kill and destroy.
You love me.
You're sorry.
Well tough shit!
Now I hope you can see it.
The hearts you stabbed at with you hate.
Will now and forever decide your fate.