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Hello Darkfriend...
longtime I would say.......my life is miserable but I am standing on my own two....as they say..My Dreams are starting to make themselves alil more clear....Im afraid of what some of those things I see mean. Don't let the blood rule you is what some of my dreams say others say...drink...drown in the source of life...lol...funny I should be back at this place explaining my transition..Years of experience and I still have this problem..I guess my mixed blood makes life alil har… Continue

Yes...Im back it is me.....lost, alone, and a heart ripping pain. Well my dreams are back and they are worse. I fear Im slipping further and further into the world that my mind has created. Im on my own with this one it seems. There is no help for me...no knowledge that could help. I am different and I am me....with a whole lot of baggage.
I wake up on a bed of broken glass with my hands and feet chained..I hear a very low menacing chuckle. My vision is blurry..and I feel like there was somethin… Continue

Dear Darkfriend,

So Im kinda becoming myself again. I couldn't be more delighted to know that I am once more going to be my devious self...hahaha. My brother of course thinks I need to take more time to recover..well okay not only him but the ones who have finally put on Rules( I don't understand why? okay maybe I do) Recover they say?. NO I refuse to go back to a state that had me insane in my dreams as well as reality, if I feel better I want to act better. So I will go on like nothing is wro… Continue

Dear Darkfriend.


I've been awake since the yesturday's night ended. Im so disturbed and nothing is getting better. For the first time since I began to feel things within me changing Im afraid..no Im am terrified. What's going to be the finished product of whats happening to me. I don't really want to find out. I tried to go to sleep a day ago and how I woke up was enough to make me never sleep again. I was being carried by someone dressed in all black with bloody hands. I couldn't see their fa… Continue

Dear Darkfriend.


Another Morning huh? Yes it is beginning to be somewhat of a habit. I do believe that its getting worse the images are becoming more clear and he was right whats inside of me wants out. Im trying to fight it but eventually it will win.
There's pain now. And it has me falling to the floor, bowing my back and screaming in agony. Why am I fighting? I don't know. But its going to come a day when I will be very unlike my calm cool self. For days I just sat still *inhale and exhale.… Continue