A Little Insanity Never Hurt Anyone!!!

I lay in the utter lonliness
The black hole of insecurity
Trying to reasure myself
That it wasn't always like this
There once was light wasn't there
No matter how dim
There once was love
Not so complicated,not so painful
I'm not sure though if it ever felt right
Paranoia setting in
Was my heart always lost
Was my soul always black
Was I always destined
To the hell that has befallen me
Here I am caged
Trapped in my eternal cell
That I myself have created

In the storm
Stands the white rose
tumultuous waves
of destruction abound her

Yet tall is the white rose
strong in the face
Of the sensed doom around her
And she does not bow down

Pure is the white rose
In the compost earth
growing eternal strength
in the nights that so hurt

I see not the white rose
She is so far away
But I long to protect her
But only the words can I say

So I send her my words
And my poets heart
To help her when
there is hope to see her through

Be Strong little flower
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What is the purpose for my life
anger, rage, selfishness, control
these traits I posess and excel at.
Why am I this way? I'ts not what I want!
I have love in my heart even though
it aches through my chest
and bleeds through my skin
screaming insanely in my mind
What am I doing?
I have to let go
Let be free the things in life
I thought I diserved , but don't
I will need to suffer for my sins
cause nobody else ever should
Hold me accountable
Judge me not them
the pain , the regret is unbearable
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Standing at the window
overlooking the lake at night
full moon dancing on the water
here I am again thinking of you
so many times have I been in this spot
so many times wondering what if
what if things were different
imagine walking in the sand
just the two of us holding hands
not even having to say a word
we know what each others thoughts are
the waves crash up against the rocks
I feel serenity in my heart
You put your hand on my face and
trace your finger over my lips
Then you lean over slowly… Continue

Sitting all alone
My mind reeling
searching for answers
that are just not there
What have I done
how have I made my
life even more complicated
my head is pounding
the voices getting louder
screaming at me
you fucked up you stupid bitch
what is wrong with you
you can never do anything right
my head feels like it's gonna explode
the pain is unbarable but I diserve it
the voices get louder more intense
I try to scream and then I realize
I cant breath,all of the sudden
everything goes black as I
wel… Continue