Hello, T.

Near you, close to you, deep in you
I've finally gotten my calm to ensue
My clever minx, my playful mate
We'd never be to "normally" date
Though this is far, so far and cold
Yet meeting, naught is known or foretold
Least the moment, calmed and content
I need to be there or you here to be sent
Been lonely, broken, battered, and down
Same was for you until I came to town
Your friend as some omen, that you'd end with me
We'll probably never find him, stop waiting to see
Well my minx, my demonic jin… Continue

You bleed love for me, so much for me
I bleed love for you, so worried, too
Always you ask me permission to leave
Always I tell you I'd rather not heave
To your wills of evasion, I don't want you there
I want you here and don't cry and don't fear
Not the worry of aimless or scream of the blameless
It isn't your fault, you're fine, just take heed
Of gifts and of blankets, of animals nameless
It's not those I am dying, but my need of you crying
And shunning itself so that I never hear
So I wake an… Continue

The eldest cat of my house has died yesterday, after a few days of not eating and having her body shut down.
Just the other night, I petted her and heard her purr for the last time. Hugged her knowing soon she would be gone.
It always hurts a little, when a beloved pet you've known has to die. The glaze in their eyes, the cold of their bodies.
You remember their eyes once glowed as soon as you touched their head. Their ears would perk up as you petted them.
They'd reach out for you and claw your… Continue

Of all the things you said you'd do
I really wish you could follow through
I know shit's happening that stops your till
And now I am not sure you will
I'm more to dream of such to occur
Because of what you say's a blur
You will if all goes well, I'd quote
But nothing must go well, I note
For of the call, I'm still in wait
And of the visit, substantiate
I need to know if 'twill to happen
Or then I feel my heart will dampen
You frustrate me, you make me sad
But telling me slow, it sparks some glad… Continue

I've been around, but where have you been?
I've been looking, but you I've not seen.
Where are you now, at such a place as you said?
Or are you just rotting, and have died instead?
Wish I could know, wish I could tell.
You know very well, I'm a person to dwell.
I wish I could sense you, I wish you I'd feel.
But as long as I can't, perhaps what's the big deal?
I'm already suspicious of you and your thoughts.
My mind and my stomach, both shrouded with knots.
I miss you, but truly, should I wonder… Continue