I really hate rude prejudice teachers. I mean just because i don't get some of my homework done doesn't mean that I am a "bad" kid. Just because I wear black does not mean that I hate the world. This one teacher of mine told me that she doesn't care what my family life is like, my mum and little sister are living four hours away for the year for my mum's externship and I am a little....umm...i don't know.... miserable about it and when I told her about it she said that I was just using it as an… Continue

When I was young I was told I'd amount to nothing
I grew up believing it
Because I believed it, it became true
I have my daddy to thank for this
But it's not his fault
His father did the same to him
It was all he knew
Well now it's got mme sitting here drinking a beer
I don't have a job; just living off fo the government
Just like my daddy did
Just like he told me I would

Every night before I go to bed
A wave of sadness passes over me
It consumes my body, mind, and soul
Filling my head images I'd rather not see
Not necessarily unhappy ones
But ones of what used to be
Tears begin to fill my eyes
It all progresses so rapidly
I hold it in for as long as I can
But the traitor tears start to flow free
A knot forms in the back of my throat
My body shakes and quivers uncontrolably
And I start to hyperventilate
As the images in my head play out like a tv
Images of my mum… Continue

Taking up the empty space i have
deep inside my head
bringing out the fears in me
filling me with dread
Leaving me defenseless
my stomach starts to churn
bile rising in my throat
causing it to burn
I swallow it back down
not wanting to look weak
my palms start to sweat
i fight the urge to speak
My head starts to spin
and my heart begins to race
thinking about all of the decisions
I never want to face

Locked up inside of me
An animal roars with rage
Wanting, waiting to be released
From its cold, dark cage
I could free it with ease
But then who would i be
I know that someday it could happen
And it eats at me
Filling me with fear, loathing, sadness
I would lose everything i hold dear
I would slip away into madness
It's everything that i fear