~in memory of nixan~

My soul, pitch black from the scaring,
in a world of colorful souls, hearts gleaming
my heart, buryed in a box under my pain and saddness,
taped and stitched, no longer looked like a heart.
it resembled my misery
i thought time and time again,
i could end my pain easyly.
and on the day i thought i would do it, end it all,
life gave me a chance to be happy.
it sent me a pure light, so beautiful.
in that light was a soul, just as white.
i knew at once what he was and why he was here
he was my guar… Continue

ok well not 2 afend any1 but i hear peeps say they want to die and they dont even listen 2 me when i say that people dont want them 2 die.....i still wonder if they no how i feel when they say such things....i hope u guys read this and no who u r and i want to let u no that it rips a hole in my chest and takes pierces my heart when i think of u dyin and i cant do anythin about it....... Continue

By: Nixan J. Venture(my pen name)
Darkness, the deep abyss I stay in,
As I search for what I long for,
As I fall, they laugh, when I have problems, they leave, they’re vain, all of them,
A small few are quiet, but people still care more for them,
Only a small few stand by my side, only a small few listen,
But will it last? All this will come to a steady end,
Life, happiness, friendship,
It all ends, I no longer feel human,
Hallow rings in my heart, ping of emotion in my mind,
Why? Why me to suff… Continue