if i needed someone to control me, if i needed someone to push me around, i'd change my direction

do you ever wonder what people are thinking of you?
if everything that everyone says is true?
you never know.......



i always thought everything was about me. That i was everything but now i know as my world is falling apart that everything is wrong. That everyone hates me that everyone wishes they could get away from me. Now i'm going into shut down mode. i really don't care anymore........i don't have to. i miss my old life. but i love my new one, no one talks about me anymore no one trys to talk to me even.
I'm sometimes thought of as a bitch.....but i don't care anymore. if people want to think that i'm not going to stop them. i don't care what people think about me. all i know is who i am and i wouldn't give up me for anything. and for all the people that i thought cared i know that i should never have trusted. because most of you have turned out to be ass holes but i don't care, i hang with people that are like me know. i have more fun with them. i don't have to try and be someone that i'm not. i can just be me.
SO FUCK ALL YOU PEOPLE IN THE PAST.
if your not in my future thats your problem that means you did something wrong. you didn't let something go. you said shit that you had no right to say. i know that now. i'm not going to try and please you if you don't like who i am i don't care i'm me. i listen to things that you think are weird i don't sit on the side lines anymore i'm always right there. i don't plan to change that. I never will not for you not for anyone..........I'm Lexie and i know that. and this is my story.............