I know im being used, but its ok I like the Abuse.

Have you been used?

I have.

Has someone said that they loved you, but it was all a lie?

Yes, they said that.

Have you given them all that you are?

Yes, I did.

Did you get anything Back?

No.

Did you lie to yourself?

Yes.

Why did you lie?

So I didn't lose him. I don't care if I get hurt anymore.

Why do you not care about yourself?

I am nothing.

Why are you nothing?

He told me I was nothing.

Why do you care about him?

He is a good liar. He makes me believe in the impossible.

What… Continue

The sun goes behind the trees and leaves a shadow over me
I stand here wait and urning to feel the release
the blue in the sky fades to a stary night
and the moon slips over the hills
frist a tringle in my spine starts
then there a sharp pain in my lower stomach
"oh sweet pain" I scream
The loud sound of cracking bones drowns out my screams
the night air becomes more crisp in my new growing nose
the taste grows more sweet
the sounds more beautiful
My spine legths and my nails grow
I fall to the… Continue

What are mistakes?
Are they things that hurt me
or are they things that hurt others?

I loved someone that didn't love me.
Was that a mistake?
Was loveing someone a mistake?
Is love a Mistake?

I trusted you.
Was that a Mistake?
Was beleaving in you a mistake?
Is trusting a mistake?

I gave myself away.
Was that a mistake?
Was giving myself away to someone i thaught i loved a mistake?
Is giving someone everything a mistake?

I Lied to myself.
Was that a mistake?
Was lieing to myself so i didn't… Continue

Please leave me alone
leave me to my own fears
leave me alone

Please don't look down on me
Please don't hug me
leave me alone

Please don't hold me
Please don't tell me its all going to be ok
Leave me alone

Please don't wipe the tears away
Please leave them be
Leave me alone

Please don't hush me
Please don't tell me not to scream
Leave me alone

Please don't tell me your there
Please don't
Leave me alone

You will never be here
You will never hug me
You will never hold me
You will never wipe… Continue

Have you even thaught of your heart as a black hole that sucks every thing in and never lets it go?
Just keeps holding onto dreams that will never come true.
It holds on to the fear.
The love.
The Hate.
The Passion.
The envy.
The Lust.
There all sitting deep down in my soul.
Waiting to rip me to pieces.
Waiting to devour every fragment of light left.