Tianna's Blog (5)

I really hate rude prejudice teachers. I mean just because i don't get some of my homework done doesn't mean that I am a "bad" kid. Just because I wear black does not mean that I hate the world. This one teacher of mine told me that she doesn't care what my family life is like, my mum and little sister are living four hours away for the year for my mum's externship and I am a little....umm...i don't know.... miserable about it and when I told her about it she said that I was just using it as an… Continue

When I was young I was told I'd amount to nothing I grew up believing it Because I believed it, it became true I have my daddy to thank for this But it's not his fault His father did the same to him It was all he knew Well now it's got mme sitting here drinking a beer I don't have a job; just living off fo the government Just like my daddy did Just like he told me I would Continue

Every night before I go to bed A wave of sadness passes over me It consumes my body, mind, and soul Filling my head images I'd rather not see Not necessarily unhappy ones But ones of what used to be Tears begin to fill my eyes It all progresses so rapidly I hold it in for as long as I can But the traitor tears start to flow free A knot forms in the back of my throat My body shakes and quivers uncontrolably And I start to hyperventilate As the images in my head play out like a tv Images of my mum… Continue

Taking up the empty space i have deep inside my head bringing out the fears in me filling me with dread Leaving me defenseless my stomach starts to churn bile rising in my throat causing it to burn I swallow it back down not wanting to look weak my palms start to sweat i fight the urge to speak My head starts to spin and my heart begins to race thinking about all of the decisions I never want to face Continue

Locked up inside of me An animal roars with rage Wanting, waiting to be released From its cold, dark cage I could free it with ease But then who would i be I know that someday it could happen And it eats at me Filling me with fear, loathing, sadness I would lose everything i hold dear I would slip away into madness It's everything that i fear Continue