Decisions

Taking up the empty space i have
deep inside my head
bringing out the fears in me
filling me with dread
Leaving me defenseless
my stomach starts to churn
bile rising in my throat
causing it to burn
I swallow it back down
not wanting to look weak
my palms start to sweat
i fight the urge to speak
My head starts to spin
and my heart begins to race
thinking about all of the decisions
I never want to face