me, myself and the other i's

Excepted online as the nutter, the chatterer and the laugh.
Hidden from the real world as the schz', the mad one and freak.
We'll never understand how the eyes, the feelings and the heart,
Leads us to different ideas, friends and things.

I watch how the gates form blood bars entwined,
The water tasting rotten to my lips,
The air tasting of ash and i wonder when the fields shall run
With the sorrows borne of guilt and loss.

Bury me with my clothes, my pendants and money,
Whisper to my grave that'll you'll wait for me at the lake,
Wait for me and do not cry, life is to live and death is to die,
Forgive me the pain, i may 'cause you now. forgive me my love, my life somehow.