my book chapter 2

That was ten years ago I was six and overly mature for my age I understood everything when everyone thought I was like a regular six year old. They were wrong. I saw what I saw. I did what I did. I thought what I thought. But even in the beginning Jessica and I knew there was some thing wrong with our new dad. It wasn’t the drugs that bothered us it was the way he acted after he took them.

In the beginning they got us what we wanted. They spoiled us they put us in these prep schools and had me practice singing and acting. Jessica studied art and did a little bit of acting. We became vegetarians and never drank soda. We were the perfect daughters and still we felt uncomfortable with such caring and inhuman parents. Soon we became rebellious.

When I turned thirteen my new curfew was twelve o’clock. So I went to parties and clubs with my father-hating sister, Jessica. She usually left me alone going off with some same age guy wanting to get drunk and fuck some one. Who always ended up being her. I usually danced a little drank vodka or a simple beer. I ended up having a guy asking me if I would like to go back to his house or his messy hotel room with him I always said, “I’m with someone.” Then I usually made my way back home, walking. Jessica left me behind I left her behind. Sister against sister but only in the nightlife. I also began to drink soda, which my parents disapproved of.

When I was fifteen I had started singing in one of the hottest clubs in the city. Gave me money to use and to keep. My parents disagreed with my choices but did they do anything? No. They didn’t. Jessica had already graduated from high school and still studied art. She met some maybes for a husband but she always ended up being date-raped or abused so she left. Of course I never had a boyfriend but I did lose my virginity. Who I soon found out was the new guy that was with my sister so that was dramatic for me. Of course she never knew that.

So now I’m sixteen still have my job. Still have my youth. Still have my seductive charm for when I need it. I’m still in school I’m a sixteen-year-old girl who’s graduating from high school. Straight A student. My acting still going and my singing lessons ended when I was fourteen when my teacher said there was nothing more to teach me. My parents had bought Jessica and I a huge apartment for when they needed the space for a studio and plus it was taking me too long to get to school. So I have my own huge room with a huge closet and my own kitchen since I’m the only one who knows how to cook in the apartment. Jessica was thrilled knowing she could bring her boyfriend she has the one I lost my virginity to. She makes my life even more dramatic when he stares at me while I keep my distance. If I had known she was with him I would of left his apartment in a second.

“Okay Jessica I’m off for work and is James going to be here tonight?” I asked hoping he wasn’t and for once I wouldn’t have to hear the loud moaning through the wall. “Um no he’s going to be at his apartment.” She said looking up at me from her copy of twilight by stephenie Meyer. “Are you going to be at his apartment?” I asked looking at her as she stared at me through her reading glasses. “No I’m going to be leaving for New Jersey in an hour and won’t be back till tomorrow…why?” she said looking at her watch. “I was hoping I would actually sleep tonight. Thank you very much.” I said walking to the kitchen. “Haha your funny.” She said going back to her book. “Hmm…what shall be my poison today.” I said looking in the fridge. “I got some mountain dew and some green apples this morning.” She said still looking at her book “hmm…okay mind as well get some poison and forbidden fruit.” I said grabbing a mountain dew and a green apple. “Cya…” I said walking to the door. “Cya…tomorrow.” She said before I walked out the door.

“Hey Elliot…how’s life?” I said walking in and taking my coat off. “Not so bad…I just broke up with terry now I’m single.” He said making me a cup of vodka. “Cool…you going hunting tonight…it’s Saturday.” I said sitting down at the bar. “Yeah I’ll find me a nice blond or brunette.” He said getting the tables ready. “Yeah…well Jessica is going to be gone tonight…she won’t be back till tomorrow so maybe I’ll find a nice guy myself tonight.” I said drinking the last of the vodka in the glass. “So what poison did you bring tonight to keep you energize?” he asked placing a black tablecloth on one of the dining tables. “Mountain dew and some forbidden fruit.” I said taking them out. “What fruit?” he asked walking back to the counter. “Green apple.” I said holding it in my hand. “Hmmm…different." He said looking at the apple in my hand. “Yeah well I’ll go put my stuff in the back.” I said getting up. “How many songs you doing tonight?” he asked as I walked toward the staff room. “Three and I’m heading home…that new band is going to be performing…um vampires, werewolves, and homosapiens…I think is what they were called.” I said. “Haha cool name it’s real.” He said. “I know.” I said walking into the room.
The place filled up as soon as the sun went down and I got out. The three songs went quick. While I was on stage I saw James, Jessica’s boyfriend, in the crowd staring at me with vicious eyes. I knew this would happen everytime Jessica is gone he tries to make a move. So I grabbed my stuff and went out the door trying to make sure James didn’t see me. I was at least three yards away from the club when I heard IT. “Hey violet can we talk?” IT said. “Leave me alone James!” I said mad and annoyed now. “Violet…come on…I didn’t know you were her sister” James said I could feel him not a yard away from me. “Oh…so even when you found out that I was Jessica’s sister you still had to put your eyes and hands all over me when she wasn’t around!!” I yelled still walking. “I like Jessica and she’s a great girl but I love you!” he said now a foot away from me. “Go home James Jessica is in New Jersey I don’t want her to get worried when she asks kendrix if I was home tonight.” I said knowing Jessica always asked Kendrix our next-door neighbor if I came home or not when she was gone. “At least let me walk you home.” He said still walking behind me. “Fuck off James!” I yelled.
Next I knew he had pulled me so I could turn around and look at him. “Let me go James!” I said trying to pull away form his grip. Then he did it the thing I had tried to avoid from the beginning. He kissed me. I pulled away and then I slapped him so hard my hand hurt. He let go and he said nothing he just looked at me as I walked away. When I got to the apartment building I as usual walked in. got in the elevator. Got off on the forth floor. I walked to my door. Of course I usually go in but this time I didn’t and went to Kendrix’s.

*Knock Knock* the door opened and there stood kendrix’s girlfriend Blake. “Hi Blake what are guys doing?” I asked as I stood before her. “Were drinking some margaritas with a bottle of tequila…you want to join us?” she said as she opened the door so I could see kendrix and the alcohol. “Um…sorry but no I was just checking if you guys were home I’m a little depressed right now.” I said looking down at my shoes. “Well…um okay see you tomorrow.” She said as she had the ‘I’m worried’ look in her eyes. “Okay…if Jessica stops by tomorrow tell her that I had a rough night and feel wretched…okay?” I said looking at her. “Um…okay.” Was her only reply I could see she didn’t want to know what happened tonight. “Good night.” I said to her knowing she was staring at me as I walked back to my door and went inside.

When I walked in there he was sitting there in the dark as the moonlight shone on his skin. The window was opened and I could tell he didn’t use the door. “What do want James!?” I said making sure Blake and kendrix couldn’t hear me. “Why I just want to talk to you.” He said as he stood up. I was beginning to breath hard I didn’t like being in the same room with him. And worse I wanted him more than anything. “Leave.” I whispered trying to keep everything in. “what’s wrong?...are you trying to resist me?...or did you forget I’m the guy that you lost your virginity to?...huh!” he said taunting me as he walked up to me. “Leave.” Was all I could say I wasn’t going to betray my sister.

He didn’t leave he just stood there inches away from my face staring at me. All I did was do the same thing, stare back. “Leave.” I whispered as I looked down I had lost the stare. “No…I want you to admit how you feel.” He said holding my face in his hands. I walked away. I took off my long coat and it fell to the ground. All I had on was a black skirt with my black see through tank top. I didn’t know what to say. So I sat down not sure what to do or say. I felt him sit beside me and put his hands on my cheek. He turned my face to look at him. Then I couldn’t resist I had lost the power I had over myself.

So I surrendered to the burning desires I had everytime I looked at him. I pushed his lips on mine kissing him. I drew back confused at what I’ve done and trying to catch my breath. “I shouldn’t have done that.” I whispered. He stared in my eyes he knew I wanted him as much as he wanted me. “Fuck it.” I said and kissed him again. This time I placed my hands in his short brown hair and around his neck. He had one hand on my neck and the other on my leg where he placed around his waist. He leaned in so that I lay back against the couch while we kissed. His hand eventually moved to my boob and his other hand going slowly up my skirt. My hands moved to his shoulders and I wanted it when I knew that this was forbidden. I was betraying my sister.

He had picked me up and carried me to my room. Where I had the huge queen size bed. He took off my clothes and his. And soon enough we were doing intercourse. After the hard and guilty sex. I fell asleep in his arms. When I woke up it was ten o’clock and Jessica is suppose to be back at ten thirty. “James wake up!” I said waking him up. “What?” he whispered in a gentle voice as he sat up. “Jessica’s going to be home soon…you should leave or something.” I said standing up worried and nervous. “Um okay hold on.” He said standing up too.

Then the door opened. “Violet! I’m back are you still asleep.” Yelled Jessica from the living room. “Um…hold on I’ll be in there.” I yelled. James walked into my closet and tossed me some pajamas and closed the door, hiding. I threw on the pajamas and walked into the living room closing the door behind me. “Hi.” Was all I could say. “Hi…um sorry I can’t stay I’m going to James house and won’t be back till later. Go back to sleep or something.” Was all she said. “Um…okay.” I said Faking a yawn. And she left.

I walked to the door and locked it. I walked back into my room. “James?” I said opening the closet. And then I felt someone put their arms around my waist and someone kissing my neck. “What?” he whispered in my ear in a seductive voice. “Jessica is going to your house.” I said. “I know.” He said turning me around. Then he kissed me and I kissed him back.

He picked me up and slammed me against the wall. We kissed and touched. He unzipped his pants and moved his private part into me. I moaned and he moved back and forth hard into me. Gosh he was so hot no wonder he’s a model. After that he put on his clothes and left without anyone seeing him. I got in the shower and got ready.

I didn’t have work today so I was free to do what ever. So I started with washing my clothes and sheets. I brushed my teeth. I made myself breakfast. I did my homework. And I slowly cleaned the house. I had finished everything. I put the sheets back on my bed and put my clothes in my huge closet. Now I was bored. So I decided to go out.

I thought that well maybe I should go shopping and think things over. Or go to a bookstore and buy some books. But nothing helped I just kept getting the flashback of James gorgeous face on top of me. I couldn’t concentrate on anything. So I went to the bookstore that should get my mind off things. I walked into this huge bookstore that also sold DVDs and cds.

I walked into an aisle of teenage best selling books. I found the books that my sister so eagerly reads. There was twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn, looking for Alaska, speak, marked, betrayed, and untamed. I read the back of each book and decided to purchase them all so I grabbed a basket that said, ‘borders’. I put a copy of each book, hard cover and paperback, and searched for cds.

I decided to find some new artists and see how that turns out. I ended up grabbing Tokio Hotel, Great Northern, and Future of Forestry, The Green Pajamas, and H.I.M.. Then I went to the DVD aisle and ended up buying speak, almost famous, and basquiat. Overall it made me not think of last night and this morning. And sadly it cost me over a hundred dollars to buy this stuff but it’s worth it.

So after that I went home. I got upstairs and I put the bags in my room and headed to kendrix’s apartment. *Knock Knock* the door opened and there stood kendrix. “Hi…do you want to talk?” I asked as I stood before him. “Um sure come in.” he said opening the door so that I could come in. I walked in and Blake was in the kitchen and kendrix closed the door. “Um…I need to tell you guys something that you cannot tell Jessica.” I said sort of hesitating. “Okay what is it?” asked Blake. “Did you guys hear anything last night?” I asked as kendrix pulled out a chair at the counter. “Um…no nothing.” Said kendrix sitting down next to me. “Okay you guys have to swear on your lives that you will not tell Jessica about this.” I said as Blake brought out a bottle of vodka. “Okay we swear.” They both said. “I slept with James last night.” I blurted out drinking the whole thing of vodka Blake had put in my glass.

“What!?” they both shouted. “I don’t understand myself I don’t give my body and sexual side to anyone and I had to give it to Jessica’s boyfriend…I’m a mess.” I said putting my head down on the counter. “Honey…we don’t know what to say.” Blake said giving me another cup of vodka. “Neither do I.” I mumbled.

“Violet…you’re like a forbidden fruit any guy who has the opportunity to touch you will be poisoned. Your rare, your unique, no one would be able to touch you unless you let them. And you let a poisonous snake take a bite out of you.” He said. “Uh…I don’t know what to do…he’s taken more than one bite.” I said looking away. “Look violet you just need to let everything unfold stay away from the snake and find a nice tree to grow on. Find someone you actually love and give yourself completely.” Said Blake. *Knock* “Blake have you seen violet?” yelled my sister. “I should go.” I said getting up and walking to the door. I opened the door and there stood Jessica staring at me with excited eyes. I walked past her to the open door that led to our apartment.

I walked in putting my coat on the hanger and turning around to find James standing before me in a beautiful and sexy way. He smiled at me and I remembered ‘stay away from the snake’. Jessica came at my side and grabbed my hand leading me to sit on the couch. “Violet we have some news that we need to share with you.” Said my overly excited sister.

Both her and James sat down across from me holding hands. “What is it?” I said sighing. Then she held out her left hand to see that she had a gold ring with a huge diamond on her wedding finger. “We’re getting married!” she said once again over excited. I gasped and turned my eyes on James. His face was emotionless, empty. “Wow!”

Congratulations!” was all I managed to say. “Thanks! And violet I want you to be my maid of honor.” She said again overly excited. “Oh wow!” I said looking down a wave of sadness and confusion sweeping across my eyes. “Um…I’m sorry Jessica but I don’t want all the rushing and excitement going on me. I would like to be there though I just don’t want to be to the point where I’m actually busy I mean the finals are coming up and you know I hate being sixteen and having to be a senior…I’m sorry but no.” I said not wanting to have to be there when Jessica talks about nothing but her fabulous wedding. “Oh.” She said a wave of disappointment crossing her face. “Oh well at least you’ll be there to help me find my dress.” She said lifting up her own spirit.