Reality and My Story

-FRIEND-
I need a friend...
He singed her song...
I had to go outside because i couldnt deal with it...
I cried until i feel asleep ....
And I still feel like crying...
And I still feel like shit
Where is he now?
Where is he when I need him?
Do I want to live?
Do I want to die?
Pleas come, please be here with me!!
Save me from myself...
I dont need pain....
I need a fried...

-SIENTO-
No puedo mas
Solo quiero llorar
Dime que hacer
Pues tu tienes todo mi ser
Amame
Dejame pero no me tengas en suspenso...
Tu recuerdo me duele
Tu mirada me quema
Me ahogo en un mar de dolor y triztesa
Te odio
Te amo
Que es lo que debo sentir!!!


Poems and poems that is all I wirite....You wonder why im like this? You wonder why I cry? Why I suffer? Why I cut? I'll tell you.
I thought I had a reason. I thought that nothing could cause me more pain, oh who wrong I was. I thought that he was the most horrible human that there was, but i was wrong, yes i was so wrong. Enrique is his name and he broke my heart but his is nothing comapared to the monster i just met. Elias is his name. I almost got raped. . .It hurts me and it burns me. What do I do now? No body knows. . .And he was a "friend". . .What do I do now? Im more bronken than before and he is all happy than before. . .I feel that i cant get up. That there is no other way. . .I feel like im dead. I fee that that is the only way. To kill myself. But Enrique the cause of my first pain was there for me. . .


What do I do now?